Well, here's the new layout I had talked about. I had been wanting to do something new and diferent because I was already sick of the the white one. This layout was inspired by one of my favorite songs at the moment. It's called Shiny Disco Balls and it's by 2 dj's that call themselves Who da Funk. It's an awesome song, the kind you would hear at a gay club or bar, I love that kind of music. It's hillarious to watch gay guys sing along to "What it feels like for a girl". Maybe it's just funny to me, whatever. I've been having this weird allergic reaction to something that made me break out in hives the past 3 days. I went to the doctor and he said that I was a faker and that I needed to go back to school! :( But he did give me 2 prescriptions and I took them last night and again this morning. So far so good, I am not itching, my hands arent swollen and I dont have gross looking hives all over my body. Wouldnt it be embarrasing if I were on a date and I broke out in hives? Jesus, I would want to stab myself. But enough about my disgusting deseases, let's talk about Joe Millionaire. hahahaha, let's not. I talked to Jeree' last night, she is in Delaware because she married a guy who is in the military and they stationed him way up there in the middle of no where east coast. hahahaha, it's 67 degrees in El Paso today, I'm wearing a hoochie mama shirt and your wearing your nanook of the north down parka and ear muffs! hehehehe j/k JJ, you know Lauren and I miss you in our drunken debouchery, it's just not the same. When Lauren gets drunk and starts falling asleep theres no one to keep me company! hahahaha Gag me! <3 There I wrote about you so quit your bitching! j/k I <3 you Fat Albert (who is no longer fat) had some good ideas for content on my site, I'm working on them and they will be up soon! I am in a computer lab at school and I am sitting at a computer that is right under the AC, so my hair is blowing all over the place. Hahaha, bet you aren't even dreaming of turning your AC on anytime soon Jeree'!!! hahahahaha I'd also like to send a shout out to my sistahs up here in Las Cruces, Gibber-Gabber and Nepha-Nina, to them, I'd like to send out a big YO! And I would also like to reminice about a lil' sumtin sumtin. Gaby turn around and let me see your sexy body go... uh-huh uh-huh! Oh Gibber-Gabber, you crack me up sometimes, in slow motion. I am at the IBM lab in Jacobs Hall guys, and I just saw a major hoodie hoo big white meaty Lisa specimen. He was hott, but of course I just sat here and drooled a little bit. Have you noticed that there are always alot of injun people at this lab? It's like all the international students take over and hog the computers to talk to their friends and family in the mother land. They all also speak in their language, not english. It makes me paranoid, like, I wonder if theyre talking shit about me. They probably are, because we talk shit about everyone and their baby mommas in spanish. If you see 3 girls at NMSU walking around and they say some thing like: Oyyyy, mira ese guey que va aya.... We're probably talking shit about you. Well, this was fun. I wonder if Steve is going to call me when he gets in from vegas? hahahaha

Valentines Day was so much fun! Lauren and I went to the Sutra Room and I dont know about Lauren, but I was pretty wasted. We drank vodka tonics all night my gawd they were so good. I think Malibu has been replaced as my drink of choice. I spent like 3.50 on all my drinks and on all of Lauren's drinks, which was awesome. For those of you NOT from El Paso, Sutra is a swanky bar on the west side that when it first opened, charged $6.00 for a drink and about $4.00 for a beer, which by El Paso club/bar standards, is alot. All the up-scale bars in town charge that much for a drink. Well on friday they had 25 cent drinks, they had male strippers (yuck) and they had an awesome DJ from Seattle playing some pretty awesome music. Some guys sent Lauren and I some drinks, we went to Geo Geske and we bump[ed into my friend Greg's friend, who's some psychoklogist, and he was like "oh you can't leave, you two are the hottest girls here!" Who doesnt like a little flattery? Then we went to the 02 and I bumpped into Vero Perez and she was there with her brother, who knew Lauren, so we hung out there for a liittle bit but then we were both drunk/tired so we went back to sutra so I could pick up my car. Of course I made an ass of myself before that. I called Steve. There should be a law that prohibits drunk people from using cell phones and calling people of the opposite sex. Have you noticed that the only time you have an urge to confess your un-dying love to an ex, or to tell that hott guy you met last week just how hot you really think he is, is when youre completely obliterated? I've noticed, and I of course called Steve and told him that I thought we should have some pre-Vegas sex. I cannot beleive I did that, i just can't. I hope he doesnt remember what a lame ass I was, because now we may never hook up. I called Ryan too, but mostly because we saw his friend at Sutra, and I wanted to wish him a happy valentines day. Of course I ended up telling him I missed him (why, I have no idea) and that I wanted to see him when he was back in town. God. Then last night (saturday) i decided to stay home and rest, but before that I went to Taco Cabana to get some din-din. I ate my food and soon my back and my head started itching like crazy, I take my shirt off, and I'm red all over. I go to the mirror to get a better look, and my whole fucking body is just red and I start to see hives on me a few minutes later. It was so gross and it itched like crazy. When I woke up, the hives were gone, thank goodness! Albert (al-pal, fat albert) called me this morn at the butt crack of dawn (9:00 am) and gave me some "hott soopercicial.net worthy" gossip. Turns out that he ran into this chick Ebony that we knew from freshman year of college,a nd she told himn that Stephanie had a kid and was now engaged to the babby's daddy. Whats up with all these people my age getting married/enagged/pregnant. Like, seriously, i dont plan on settleing down for a while, at leats till my late 20's or 30's. My advice to you all, please use a condom! Not just to prevent pregnancy, but you might want to prevent ghonorreah or herpes. ;) Just a little advice from me to you, hope you're all having a great weekend. I am working on a new layout *gasp*! Fo shizzle!

I AM A MORON. **note to self -When you meet a guy, find something else to talk about, anything, just dont mention your website. Turns out they might actually read it. Well, Today is Valentines Day, or as some of us would rather call it, Friday. Exactly a year ago today I was at my friend Gerard's Funeral. Wednesday they had his anniversary mass and a little reception in his honor. His mom asked me to speak about him a little bit, and they showed pictures of him on a screen. They had some of his paintings up on the wall, and we all just spent the night remembering G. Tonight, I think Lauren and I are going to the Sutra room for a while. They have a drink special from 7-9 so we are going to check it out. Maybe there will be some un-suspecting hot single guys there for Lauren and I to seduce. I had a history test yesterday that I had no idea was happening. I'm walking to my class and I see everyone outside reading their books and notes, so I try to be smooth and ask this guy "do you know if we need a scantron sheet for this?" And he says. "yeah, the big blue one." Oh shit. The big blue one, with a possible 180 something questions. So I run (literally) tto the bookstore and buy my scantron sheet, go to class, relaize that I have no #2 pencils on me, so I start to panick. The girl next to me offers a pencil, and I ask her if she studied. She says to me, oh helllll naw, Ihavent been to class in 2 1/2 weeks. Everyone around us laughs because she practically yelled it out for the whole auditorium to hear. It seemed that no one really studied for this test. Maybe he'll grade on a curve. It wasn't too hard, it was just about reconstruction and the old west and gold rush. I think i at least got a 60. :| Does anyone have any sex-filled plans for this valentines day? Thats the kind of V-Day I'd want, full of sex, forget the flowers and the candy. haha j/k I think Ju-Ju's HIT IT AND QUIT IT philosophy is getting set in my brain a little more each day. I love all you guys! Happy Valentines Day, and don't forget to visit
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Everyone have a nice day. Thanks. I feel sooooo just like *ugh* whatever. I have eaten 3 oranges so far today. I think I have all the vitamin C I will need for the next 8 years. I'm here at work, not really working. I am still thinking about all the stuff that makes my world go round and the drama that it brings. Slap me, like, for real thins time, make sure it stings. Ohhhh yaeah baby, harder, oooh thats it, c'mon HARDER!!@#@# Oops. I have been talking to a really awesome guy that I met in #lifetraks. :D He has been a super cool friend and has defenetly helped me get out of this post-being-dumped-slum that I'm in. He knows who he is, so no need to drop names. :P Thanks sooo much for being a friend I can talk to, and I hope you know that you can talk to me about anything thats going on. He also made this thingie for me: Isn't it the coolest? So link me and use it! I've only had one can of coke today so far. That, and the 3 oranges I've eaten. Being healthy is alot harder than I thought it would be. I am going to go work out for 7 hrs tonight! Ok, maybe its more like 2 hrs, but I have to be in some bufffff shape by the 16th. They just told me at a staff meeting this morning that we're running in some mini-marathon thing in honor of our kids. I thought it was like a 5 mile thing, so I cringed. They told me I HAD to go, I cringed more. Then they told me it was 13 miles, so I died. It will be worth it though, I'm going to be doing it for our kids. So yay me. Someone buy me some Hydroxycut so that I can be hott and fat free. :D

THIS IS GOING TO BE A LAME POST: READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. So I've been thinking, valentines day should be outlawed. No. Seriously. I am turning into a gay emoional creature because I am starting to wonder why things always work out the way they do. I am STILL not over Marcus, so slap me. Or maybe I am over him, but im just not over the situation. It still blows my mind how someone can chnage soo fast. This was split second, like for real. It leaves me wondering what I did wrong, or where I didnt do the right thing. Anyway, I feel like after all that, I am kind of ready to settle down. I know, I'm like 21 yrs old, but ever since I started dating, I've never taken it vry seriously. I dont even know if I could handle a relationship, what am I talking about. Like right now, the best relationship I feel capable of having is a long distance one. I think that things fall apart when I start spending so much time with someone. It's crazy. I guess I've also gone wrong with the fact that I've let myself settle. 90% of guys that claim to like me, dont like me, they want me. I am so not even looking for something like that. I am a person with feelings and I wish that people would start looking past the physical and looking more into the soul and the heart. I am almost losing hope and wondering if I'm ever going to meet someone who can understand me, my passions, my dreams. my beliefs and my feelings. I think the whole thing going on with my family is whats tearing me apart and making my emotions go wild. I feel so helpless, and I hate not having control over things that affect my feelings. I feel like maybe I am more fragile than I care to acknowlege, and I dont really like that. I want to just be normal, but most of all i guess, what I really want is to be in love. Slap me now please. Hard. Thanks. I know i know, it's like anyone Ive ever loved or could potetntially love is so far away from me now that it's almost impossible for it to even work. Enough. Let's focus on other thins, such as how much valentines day is going to suck this year. I usually get valentines from my mom, but being that we are not on speakign terms, I dont even want anything from her. So that leaves me as a complete lamer on V-Day too. Guys, send me flowers @ work. :( thanks Thats all.

I WANT TO GRADUATE ALREADY!!! School blows. I need a sponsor that will suport me for the rest of my life. Anyone wanna help? :(

Hi....I didnt forget about my site. I have started to write something a few times, but then I get emotional and distraught so I stop or I close this window. I am still not over the whole Marcus thing. It defenetly hit me harder than I expected it to. It's like, he wasnt even my boyfriend, but we were in a relationship that was so much like it. We spent all our free time together and we were like peanut butter and jelly. Excuse the cheesy metaphor. Then when he just stopped talking to me all of a sudden, I was like WTF. So I would call him, he wouldnt answer, I'd leave a voicemail, he wouldnt call back. It was just completely heartbreaking. Now I know why they call it a broken heart, the feeling inside is so fuckin horrible that it must be what it feels like to have your heart breaking. See?! I'm so not over his ass yet. It's getting easier for me to not think of him, and when I do think of him, I don't start crying all the time. I've even tried to meet new guys and date a little, but I can't even enjoy a date or feel completely normal talking to a guy because I still have him in the back of my mind. I am back at New Mexico State University! Wooo! It feels so good to be back and be in a familiar enviornment with people I know and with my friends. I am soooo going through the I just wanna graduate phase right now and I am hauling ass to try to get a 4.0 this semester and graduate and all that other good stuff. My family life has been full of turmoil too. My parents announced that after 36 years of being married, they were going to split up. I was in so much shock and so angry at them. Especially at my mom because she moved out of the house. So not only had Marcus walked out of my life, but my parents were pretty much doing their own thing. I felt so alone. Sooooo sooo sooo alone. I was scared of what I was going to do. I have never had to take care of myself or provide for myself. My parents had always given me everything, and when I found out, I was sooo angry that I thought that I would be able to move out and be on my own and not have to worry about them because I could make it on my own. hahaha yeah right. Reality is that I am not ready to do this yet because I havent even graduated from college yet. And there is no way that I am going to live in some shitty ass place and eat ramen noodles for breakfast lunch and dinner. No way jose. Its like a million things were running through my mind and i was scared that I wouldnt be able to figure my shit out and that I would be alone. I am so scared of being alone, not in a sense that I need to have a boyfriend by my side in order for me to feel whole. But when I have that and I lose it, its the worst feeling in the world. I do perfectly well being single and not feeling alone. I have some of the most awesome friends in the world and I love them to death because they have been here for me so many times and they always make me feel like I am not alone. So basicly, thats what has been going on with me. I am just waiting for things to get better, because I doubt that things can get any worse. Theres a saying in spanish that says "El Se�or aprieta pero no ahorca", which kind of means that God will squeeze but he wont choke. Its something good to remember in times like this.

I am alergic to cleaning. No, seriously I am! Today we all dressed down and grungy to comde to work because we were going to clean this place up. So far, I have gone through a box of kleenex because my allergies just started out of no where! I am sooooo allergic to house work. Last night Margaret, Nepha, Lauren and her friends and I went to the Stampede. It sucked so much. New Years was a bust too. I didnt get to kiss anyone at midnight and this fat dyke tried to hit on me and my kick ass outfit and super perfect hair for that night were ruined bvy the champagne that they sprayed all over the fuckin place. :( My new years resolutions? 1. six pack abs and buns of steel 2. date guys that are worthwhile 3. get on the deans list I know I always say I'm going to get on the deans list, but this time i'm going to do it~!!!! hahahahaha yeah right

Hi my name is Lisa, I'm 21 years old, and I have a problem. I date guys that treat me like shit and I like it! hahaha OK so Marcus gave me the ever ppular "I need time to myself right now" talk and somehow that makes me so sad and so angry and so confused. I miss him like crazy, but what am I gonna do? Well I have decided a few things. I am going to move back to New Mexico. Thats right, I'm going to go back to NMSU. :D It is something that I've been debating for a while, but now with all this drama (not just the Marcus drama) going on in my life, I think it's best if I just go away. I know, I'm such a chicken for running from my problems. My car is still dead, so I finally got sick of waiting for my dad to call a repair place and do someting about it, so I called one on my own. I sounded like a moron tyring to explain what was wrong with my car to that man. So I go downstairs and ask my dad if he jump starts the car does he think I could make it to the shop. And he says he already called someone. Grrrr. I hate being without a car. I have also been enjoying beign a groupie. :D I've been partying with the Washington and Purdue football payers this weekend. I had sooo much fun. We danced allll night long and they were so fun and cute and cool! Why can't NMSU or UTEP football players be so cool? OK, well there is that ONE utep football player that makes me swoon, but thats another story. My friends and I are going to the Sun Fiesta today, so it should be good! Then we're all gonna go to the Sun Bowl tomorrow. We dont know a damn thing about football, but we're going to get wasted and cheer for the cute guys.

Last night my friends and I got together to celebrate Christmas. I was still crying because I have no idea what is going on with Marcus, so at first I was kind of blah. Then Nepha told us that Mario had proposed to her, so we all got happy. Karla Rivera and Leo are more in love than ever, but he's in Acapulco with his family right now, so she was just really bummed out. Ariana and Roman are still together and things are great for her. Karla Sanchez is still with the Cesar drama that never ends and she swears that this time they broke up for good. Natalia is still my partner in crime for the girls who just cant have a relationship. We all went around ij a circle and said what we were thankful for, and we were all pretty much thankfull for the same things. Our friendship. Everyone said things that really came from the heart, and we all realized that guys come and go, other people come and go, jobs come and go, but we always have each other and we know that when we get together everything is kind of put on hold because we have a true friendship. Of course we all caught up on gossip, shared secrets (that had been kpt for years and years) and we laughed. Karla had this little book that her mom gave her on love. We talked about love and relationships and feelings and emotions and how we felt. I can honestly say that I dont think I have ever bonded with someone in that way. Everything we talked about made me realize just how much I have changed. I thought that I had changed and become a better person by becoming more open minded and trusting people. I have been such an idiot because I have let myself grow apart from my friends and I started hanging out with people that I would never even associate with a few years ago. I dont mean to sound like a snob, if anything, I'm glad that I'm not a snob anymore and that I am capable of seeing past the physical and more into the soul. We stayed up till 1 am talking, and my friends made me feel so good and they helped me see that I'm worth more than this, and if he isn't mature enough to pick up a phone and call me, at least to tell me that he hates me, then I'm not the one with the problem. I learned alot about what love is, what love does, what love takes, and that love hurts. After talking with Karla, I saw that she and Leo were really in love and that I've never felt that way about anyone before. I have loved people, but never have I gotten the feelings that she described. Do I love Marcus? Yes. Am in love with him? No. I would be crazy to say that. I am so hurt, I cant even find any other words to say how much it hurts. It hurts that I'm not going to call him, and it hurts knowing that he probably isnt going to call me. The hardest part is trying to understand how he could've changed so much. I thought that he was the man that I had always dreamed of. He had so many qualities that I thought were what I was looking for in a partner. He treated me like a princess, he made me feel so special, so cared for, so loved. And how he was able to just take it all away without explaining anything, and from one day to the next, I dont underastand. last night when I got home, I was reflecting on what I had talked about with my friends, then I thought of Marcus and i started to cry. I miss him. I miss him so much. So I did something that I do when I've lost all hope and I need someone to talk to who will just listen. I prayed. Not so much because I miss Marcus, but because I need to able to find happiness somewhere else. I was fine before I met him, and I want to feel fine again. I just hope that God helps me find the strength in me to move on if he is indeed out of my life. God, this hurts so much. :(

:( I cant even tell you how sad I feel. I'm a retard for even puting a guy in a possition where he could affect me so much. Things with Marcus aren't exctly good. The worst part is I have no idea whats going on with him. He's acting completely cold, avoiding me, and not returning my calls. Who wouldve known that an un-returned phone call or an un answered phone could hurt so much? i don't even know what I did this time, because usually I say some fucked up thing, but I cant think of anything I couldve said or done. I've been crying all day, well, the mall cheered me up a little bit. I finished buying my x-mas presents and I got him his gift, although by the way things are, I dont think he really wants to talk to me, let alone see me. I'd like to think that I am not a bad person, that I try to do the right thing and that I always try to work problems out. I have no clue what is going through Marcus' head right now, and I would give anything to know, because if he doesnt want to see me anymore, I would feel better knowing. Mayeb I'm overreacting, maybe he has things to do and he hasnt had time to talk to me. Maybe he just needs a break from me. I dont know. :( It hurts soo much, I dont even know what to do. The thing that hurts the most is just realizing that I am completely incapable of holding onto someone. What's wrong with me??? I never needed a relationship to be happy, but when I'm in a situation like it, it makes me so sad. The only thing I want is for things to work out between us, because I have never met anyone like him. Ive never met anyone who I was willing to fight for more than him. I feel like he's what I need, what I want, what makes me happy. I was listening to my favorite Creed song today, and I feel as if that song was written for me. So much that when I saw them in concert both time, I started crying when they played this song. It's perfect. Don't Stop Dancing At times life is wicked and I just can�t see the light A silver lining sometimes isn�t enough To make some wrongs seem right Whatever life brings I�ve been through everything And now I�m on my knees again But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Children don�t stop dancing Believe you can fly Away�away At times life�s unfair and you know it�s plain to see Hey God I know I�m just a dot in this world Have you forgot about me? Whatever life brings I�ve been through everything And now I�m on my knees again But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Am I hiding in the shadows? Forget the pain and forget the sorrows But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Children don�t stop dancing Believe you can fly Away�away Am I hiding in the shadows? Are we hiding in the shadows?

I am sooooooooo sad today. :( Marcus and I got into an argument last night and he has not called me today. I think I jinxed it by writing about him on here. We have this huge meeting tonight with the board members and I have to read a letter supporting my boss. I am so nervous since I am the youngest one working here and I doint think those people will take me seriously. On a better note, my friend Jeree flys in from Delaware today. I get to meet her husband and stuff. She wants to go to Reno tonight, but I dont feel like walking over the bridge into mexico in this 30 degree weather in my hoochie mama shirts. I would really much rather just spend some time with Marcus. :( I hope he calls me.

It's been a long time since I felt the way I feel today. About 2 months ago I felt ontop of the world, it felt soooo good to be me and it seemed that everythign was going right. Now I feel like my life has gone into the complete oposite direction. People that know me may have heard me say "I think God forgot about me." It's so dramatic and so lame of me to say, but man, it sure does feel that way more often than not. Christmas should be a time whn you're full of happiness and joy and cheer. I feel like I'm full of pesimistic thoughts of self pity and finding myself crying over stupid little things. (and NO this is NOT PMS.) If it wasnt for my job, I would feel so lonely. It seems like I push myself away from my friends sometimes, because I'm changing, and my views onflict with theirs. I have new friends, but we're not that close. I miss how things used to be in highschool! I feel lonely sometimes, even though I have so many people around me that love me and care about me. I guess I just really try to be accepted by everyone, and when someone doesnt accept me, it sucks. When things dont go as I planned, it sucks. And when the one person who matters so much to me, doesnt give me the attention i crave/want/need it really sucks. Alot, maybe more than I'm willing to admit, comes down to that. I fel so self concious and insecure. I always wonder if im smart enough, if im pretty enough, if im sexy enough, if i'm good enough. I want to make this work so much, because I feel like I am somehow incapable of having any sort of romantic relationship with someone of the opposite sex. I don't know if it's me, if it's my insecurity that makes me less attractive, or if maybe I just havent found someone who is trully right for me. I'v been seeing someone for the past 7 weks,and I havent written about him on here because I dont want to jinx anything. It seems thatr anytime I write about a guy I am dating, something goes terribly wrong. i really see this sie as an outlet for me to be me. Like to really just be me, and no have to put on this facade of what I think other people might want me to be. Marus is really amazing. From our very first date, I was so intrigued by him. We spent 2 weeks together right after our first date. He was so polite, so respectful, so wonderful. Marcus just got out of a 6 yr relationship, he has a 2 year old son. I am not bothered by the fact that he has a kid. I admire him for being able to take care of him. It seems that now, Marcus isnt the same with me anymore. And I cant help but wonder if maybe, Im not good enough. If maybe I did something or let him down. I'm not saying that he affects me so much that I feel my life is kind of affected by it as well. Life goes on, I dont even know what I'm saying anymore. maybe I just try too hard to be accepted. Maybe I try to hard to make relationships work, or maybe I dont try hard enough. Everyone feels alone and scared sometimes, and this is my time to feel that way. Sometimes all you want is a hug from someone who cares, and that would make it go away.

I have been so lazy! It's just so typical of me to be this way, anyone that knows me knows I procrastinate on everything. Alot of stuff has beein going on with me. Lot's of boy drama (as always) personal drama, family drama, work drama, its insane! Most of it is incredibly stupid, and I swear, peoples stupidity never ceases to amaze me. Lauren is graduating from college this saturday! I am so proud of her! She already got hired to work in January, so she will be my sugar momma and support me. Lauren, I'll go to Colinas and get the lease paperwork ready so you can sign and start paying the rent on our new bling bling apartment! Think of all the hotties by the pool in the summer!!! *drools* Lauren is such a great friend and even though she always manages to sound rude on the phone (witch!) shes beyond awesome. Gaby and Nepha invited me up to Cruces this thursday to go to some new club they opened up there. I'm not sure if I'm going, but it sounds like fun. I am also thinking about going back to NMSU for the spring. It's such a tough decision, but I need to really sit down and think about it. I've been having a really goods time with my friends lately and the people around me. So much has happened at work, and I'm learning so much. I've learned to appreciate life so much more now, and just how important it is to tell people that you love them, that you care about them, before it's too late. :) So if you're even taking the time to read the mumblings of a lamer that is me, thank you. :) I've been talking to Arial because Trouble told me he was super cool! She did not lie! Turns out that Arial lives in El Paso too! :O isn't that weird??? We get drunk at the same Double Daves evey wed. and didnt even know it! I think that's some very worthy gossip, cam bitches guy and b-list cam girl get drunk together. hahaha I want to go see the new Harry Potter movie tonight, maybe I will. I need to do alot of x-mas shopping because, well, I havent done any yet! haha I am going to start working a new layout, a real one with content, not just a blog and a cam. I have some really cool stuff planned, so tell your friends! Lame. Bye.

Wow, I've neglected this for a looooong time now. I've been semi-busy and havent really had time or motivation to write something on here. I just got back from a 2nd interview at Tres Mariposas. It went well and I certainly impressed them with knowing what Womans Wear Daily was. It would be an awesme job, not to mention the killer employee discount! gah ok Last night I went to a quincea�era, which is a Mexican girls 15th birthday party. It's like a sweet 16 I guess, but alot more dramatic, almost like a wedding. I had one, and it was awesome. It was one of the best ones I would say, everyone (except me of course) found a boyfriend/girlfreind, then Leslie spilled that drink all ovrer Jeannette, people I hated were there, we made up the piruja dance...hahahah....good times. I've been feeling kind of down, one of our kids pased away this week, he was only 2 years old. It keeps getting harder and hareder for me to deal with it and work there and be strong and everyting else. It's just so unfair how kids lose their battle to cancer, even with early detection and harsh treatments. It makes my reason of being alot harder to understand, but I need to stop focusing so much on it. I'm driving myself crazy just thinking about it. Wed I went to Double Daves with Lauren, but no one interesting was there. hahah, somethingh funny did happen though. Joe, the manager, is my ex bf's former roomate, so Iknow him pretty well and he usually hooks us up. Lauren and I were both pretty hungry so we decide to get the buffett ad grub on some pizza. I give her 10 bucks, and tell her to go get both of us hooked up for 10 dollars, but to try to getit for 5 first. So she goes over there and I see her talking with Joe. Then she comes back, and says, ummm ok. I got it for 10. And I ask what happened and she says, "I asked him how much he would would charge me for a buffet and he said $3.50, so then I said, ok, can I have 2 for 10 dollars?" Lauren...you are the wind beneath my wings lover!!@ hahahaha That was by far THE BLONDEST moment in time that we have shared. hahaha ok anyway. I can't really think of anything else to write, so i'll stop here. Thanks. Ohhh, its my moms b-day tomorrow, she'll be 56! :O

I havent updated in forever...shoot me, I have lots to say, i will post later!!! <3 you mom, because I know youre the only person who visits this site! hahaha

Its thursday night, 8:55 pm, and i'm still at the office. This totally bites. I am beyond sleepy, I am just in zombie mode. Marcus came over and he's keeping me company. <3 yay marcus yay I want to kill my boss for being such a perfectionist. I have to stay here and work, because she wants to put some shit out of the way tonight. I could perfectly well do this for tomorrow, but i will be flexible, and I will please her. <3 me. DIE thanks

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Friday Five sucks today, so i shall post the googlism for Lisa. It's suprisingly porn-ish and slutty. Googlism for: lisa lisa is adyktive lisa is on lisa is framed lisa is back lisa is a 76 year old lady who lives alone in lisa is eastenders culprit lisa is forever smiling lisa is a ny yankees fan lisa is a race car driver lisa is set to go wild in zambia lisa is likely to see signals from mbhs peter bender jila / lisa is crowned lisa is cool lisa is very hot and waits for your cock that 70's porn lisa is absolutely correct lisa is widely moving apart the pink wet vagina of her lesbian lisa is tenderly licking the sexy buttocks of her girlfriend by lisa is waiting for lisa is webminded lisa is king of the world lisa is a loser lisa is adyktively versatile lisa is true lisa is sitting pretty enough lisa is a 76 year old lady who lives alone in sheltered accommodation and prior to this hospital admission was able to care for herself lisa is bottoms up lisa is eastenders culprit phil mitchell confronts lisa on eastenders on thursday the ex lisa is het slimste lid van de simpsons lisa is a race car driver in the pits lisa is likely to see signals from mbhs peter lisa is lisa is cool have you seen lisa's journal? i like it an awful lot and i'm sure you will lisa is very hot and waits for your cock lisa is a production lisa is very hot and waits for your cock brittany spears babe outdoors wanting lisa is the voice of koran in legend of himiko from central park media lisa is widely moving apart the pink wet vagina of her lesbian friend and licking her opened asshole lisa is tenderly licking the sexy buttocks of her girlfriend by her wet tongue lisa is gonna get it on come and watch lisa is geboren lisa is an outspoken adversary of the left and radical feminism and a proponent of modern conservative principles lisa is not an unmixed blessing for a work of art lisa is waiting for you to cum big boob blonde takes it from both ends love bugs good goody bady bady hardcore lisa is working chiara and she has tonya as her little helper lisa is hot lisa is kept in the warden's office lisa is a good mother because she is a kind lisa is the founder and president of the snider's web lisa is a co lisa is dead lisa is actively involved in fostering education in globalization lisa is a dive lisa is editor lisa is a very experienced musical theatre actress and dancer who most recently starred in les miserables lisa is now a minimal hurricane lisa is a non lisa is worried by the number of times she's seen josh talking to chiara lisa is hung in napoleon bonapart's bedroom in the tuileries lisa is also coordinating team efforts to create a long lisa is painted over gioconda lisa is participating in the lisa is one of the country's foremost illusionists with a bachelor of arts degree in speech with concentration in theatre lisa is an eight year old female in the third grade lisa is originally from toronto lisa is still in college lisa is more excited than max lisa is the right coach for me? lisa is a story about a man named george lisa is part of a team that brings in excess of 25 years real estate experience in prince william and northern virginia alone lisa is fully functional lisa is more confident on the mat lisa is home lisa is the voice behind some of the 1980s' most memorable songs lisa is the best lisa is a slighly boring character because she's so good all the time lisa is an enthusiastic and motivated teacher who is totally inspired to assist others in finding their own answers lisa is about? want to know how it can benefit both yourself and the leigh centurions rugby league club lisa is used to signify "a woman of great taste" a pun put into service for a lisa is used first as an attribute of absolute and absolutely corrupt power lisa is highly complementary to the large ground lisa is in the second grade at springfield elementary school where she excels in all subject areas lisa is a native memphian who attended germantown high school lisa is very hot and waits for your cock and pheromones pix lisa is the author of so you want to start a chronic illness/pain ministry lisa is a first year mechanical engineering student whose hobbies are playing in a band and lisa is similar to a dynamic link library lisa is a spunky lisa is a terrific editor lisa is an expert sound designer and arranger as well as the premier new age harpist lisa is the child of a jewish mother and a black father lisa is the short one What do you think about that, eh? ;) I added some more people that I had to link, so ta-da! <3 you guys and dont forget to spread the word, www.sooperficial.net!!!

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