I had the weirdest dream last night. Nepha, you're going to kill me for even DREAMING about any other guy at school again (Escalade Pike guy who might be trailer guy but we're not sure who's who anymore). I had a dream, with Luke. hahaha yes it was a wondeful dream. He called me from Buffalo and told me that he couldn't get me out of his mind, and that he hadnt felt that way about anyone in a long time. So somehow, he ends p driving back to NMSU and picking me up and taking me back to Buffalo. The whole time I'm like, how can this guy be so sweet? He takes me to his house in Buffalo, I meet his parents and his little sister, and we just end up cuddling and hugging and I swear it felt soooooo real. (doesnt it always) It was just so weird that I wuld even dream something like that about Luke, but yeah. I dont think he's going to be calling my ass anytime soon. hahaha He's a moron. Anyway... I went to Mitla with the gang on Saturday like I had mentioned. Heres a few pictures of the trip to Juarez: Julian's self portrait in Al-Pals Cherokee, Meg is the blonde looking out the window. Me drinking a Tecate, it was sooo good! (even though HE disagrees!) Fat Albert and Ju-Ju posing with the stuffed dear head right by our table. It grossed Margaret out to look at it while she was eating! This is what we all ate, a sirloin steak that was falling off te plate. They have the best sirloin there, hands down! I didnt finish it, but I did pretty good. After our glutonous adventure at the Mitla, we went over to Applebee's in Juarez and had some Dos XX Brewtus'. That girl was our bartender and she ended up being super awesome. We al took her partying with us afterward to Hippo's! Like I said, good times! The girls name was Gina and she's from Guadalajara and used to work as a bartender on the beach at Puerto Vallarta. She doesnt speak english very well, but we all speak fluent spanish so we were able to talk. She told us about this one time, when the other girls that worked at the bar would "teach her" english. Well one day, Kobe Bryant comes to her bar, and her "friends" prompt her to speak english like they had taught her to Kobe. So she walkes up to him, sets a napkin down, looks up, smiles and then says "Hi Nigger!" hahahahahahhahaha Kobe didnt stay for a drink! hahahaha She has some whack ass friends, shes lucky she didnt get her face beaten in. My spring break is over. :( booo But i get to go back to school and work and not be a bum all day. I am planning on going to vegas as soon as finals are over! Which is the first week in may. I need to stop eating junk as of NOW and going back to the gym. I'll save a ton of money from eating out anyway. Im thinking about finding another job also. Maybe at a bar? haha who knows. I'll have to see what teh situation is like. Ok i officially make no sense. I'll stfu before Ruca features me on "cam girls say the dumbest things" on Cam Mafia!

OMG!!! I am going to see DMB with Aaron this summer in Dallas! Un-fuckin-belivable! I am so stoked, we got awesome seats, we're going to road trip, we're going to have a blast! AARON I LOVE YOU$#@#@%#@! I am about to go to Juarez to have lunch with Al-Pal, Ju-Ju,and Meg. We're going to this place called Mitla, so fuckin good. I'll take the cam with me and get pictures! ahhh I;m bouncing off the walls! bye!

HE made THIS for me. I love him. Sorry for the lack of updates, but I havent been feeling like myself lately. I'm kind of confused about alot of things and i'm not sure whats real and what isn anymore. All I do know is that this feeling will go away soon and soon enough I'll have answers to alot of my quesions. Do you ever feel like youre a huge joke? Thats kind of how I feel right now. I miss schooland work, I'll be glad once I go back. It's hard to try to fill the emptiness on your own. I had some doubt before, but now I'm sure. Mayb I'm too sensetive. I do know one thing though, I am not going to be played for a fool anymore. If you read that and it hit home, good. I'm not direscting it anyone in particular, but for the people who say they care about me, dont say things unless you mean them. And i always mean what i say. Have a nice day.

St. Patty's Day rocked this year! Gaby, Daniel, Nepha, Mario, Ju-Ju, 2 of marios friends and I went to Bennigans in Las Cruces. It was soooo awesome. My beer wasnt green, so I was a little pissed about that, but we had an awesome time. The only bad point was when Nepha turned into the drunk bitch that she's so capable of becoming. Mario said that when Nepha and I were fighting, that some chick was behind us and we kept pushing her arm and her beer kept on spilling all over her. hahahahaha stupid bitch, she should have just moved somewhere else. Gaby and I ended up in line to try to get inside Bennigans, when some guy cuts right in front of us and says "I'll give you 20 bucks if you let me go first." So we gladly let him cut in line, went inside, and had diner on him. More people should pay us for random things. (no sexual favors pervs) I'm happy, tonight is gonna rock also I hope. I dont know. ahh, i'm all jittery. bye.

And just when I start to think everyone on the face of this Earth is an idiot, I see why I am alive,a nd what I am doing with my life. I know I bitch about my job allllll the time, but it's the greatest job in the world. I am trully blessed to be able to do something i love and beleive in, and get paid for it. Friday night we had a spring break sleepover for our kids. I had a blast, didnt go to sleep at all, and realized how special all these kids are to me. Here is a picture that is going in a frame in my office. And that is what makes everything else seem petty and un-important. Happy St. Patricks day, and try not to drink too much green beer. I will try. hohohohohoho

I have this weird feeling in my tummy. I could almost say it's jealousy, but I wont. I dont even know what I feel. I've been in a weird mood all day, super confused aout alot of things and over analysing everything....thanks Gaby and Nepha! hahaha I just start to think about some things and wonder whar would happen if....or maybe if i did this diferently....just the usual I'm bored and lonely so I'm gonna think about about stupid things mood. I hae eveyrone right now.

Today is defenetly a weird day. I just found out that my boss resigned. I was just in her office and I noticed that she was being quite cold to me, more so than she has been in the past. Then one of my co-workers asked me if I had heard, and I thought that she was going to tell me about one of our kids passing away, but instead she told me that our boss had resigned. I am having really mixed feelings about this, first of all, because my boss has done above and beyond excellent things for our organization. But at the same time, I think she has reached a point where the 3 B's in the workplace (bitching, bickering and backstabbing) have taken their toll and you no longer feel happy waking up and going to work. She snapped with me about a month ago, and said some very mean, harsh, and really uncalled for things. She accused me of not wanting to help, and that shocked me, because why would I work somewhere that pays me $5.15/hr if I didn't belive in what I was doing, and I didn't have the desire in me to help out. After that day, I've been kind of avoiding her, because it really just made me lose alot of respect for her. And now, I find out that she has resigned and it really makes me wonder, how I will be able to work with someone new that will be coming in. It makes me wonder if I could even keep working here. I feel weird, I don't know. It's lunch time and I'm not even hungry. That means I really do feel weird!

Hi I'm bored, and my friends suck. THATS RIGHT BITCHES, YOU ALL SUCK! When I'm bored on a sturday evening, I expect you all to be ready to head out to a random bar. You've let me down. :( I'm bored, I'm whiney, I'm pissed, and I am sooo ready to choke someone. Pitty me. IM me, dolceprincess , thx. I met a guy on Mardi Gras. his name is Luke, he's hott, he's tall (6'7") and he thinks im a good kisser. he's smart. I am bored. Mardi gras was fun, I got alot of beads and i danced in the cage with nepha. We're so slutty sometimes, it's great! Steve found out about my rendez-vous with Coach Poss and Coach Swanson at Grahms Corner last saturday. He must think I'm a UTEP athletics groupie. how sad. :( I think I'm going to a gay bar tonight....uber sad. Pitty me. bye.

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