I'm working on a new layout...ta-da. It's pretty much the same, cept this one is pink. Go me. Hate it? Love it? Thought it was about damn time? Im not crazy over this like I was of my old one....so I'll be tweaking with it when I have time. Let me know if you want a link.

I am such a fuckins lacker when it comes to posting on this baby. Not like anyone reads anyway, right? Battle Boobs has been going on. I won last week, woo hoo, and this week I am defending my title against someone with some big tata's. I wont mind if i lose, I actually think I dont stand a chance, but we'll see what happens. Last Wednedsday, when i was so stressed out, I decided to go out and booze it up with the gang. We met at Double Daves and Meg and I downed a pitcher of Pear Cider, and when it was almost gone, Joe, who is a manager there and happens to be Ryan's former roomate, brought us another pitcher. Turns out some guy had bought it for us and said that if we wanted to know who he was I would have to go with Joe and meet him. He was really nice and I thanked him blah blah blah...... AND THEN... HE KISSED MY HAND!##@@!! This is a lost art that makes women weak in the knees boys! Ok maybe it's just me, but I thougt that was really cool of him to do that. After that we went to Erin's bar and boozed it up some more there. We bumped into Ryan (surprise surprise) and Tony and we all sat together. Then Javi and his friend got there, and then i saw Mario and Chuck and I sat with them. They bought me drinks so it was fun. :D Then Chuck started his "youre so cute Lisa" shit and i was diggin it. I met one of their friends who is the district manager for Gap here, and he let me wear his Gucci watch and told me he would make me a star in the world of retail. <3 So sweet. He kept on kissing my cheek and saying how incredible I was. People think I'm awesome and beyond beleief because I'm tall. Friday I went out with Nepha and Natalia to Capone's. It's $2 you call it, anything in the house, so we got pretttty trashed there. Then we saw Mr. Garret, who was our english teacher freshman year of HS. I made him buy me a drink for being the worst english teacher I ever had. Then we saw Ben, Tara's super cute older brother (who is like 26 and a lawyer) and him and his friends bought us Royal Fucks. Well, Nepha Nat and I were royaly fucked after that so we went to Cincinnatti Street to check it out. It sucked ass everywhere, so we went to Erins, sucked ass there, bumped into Ryan, went to Tunas, bouncer wouldnt let us in w/out us paying cover, so I went to Erins with Ryan (thats how drunk I was) and then we met up with Corn Fed and Danny at the OP. I was alreadsy sauced out of my mind, but I had 3 more drinks at the OP and after that Ryan and I were all over each other. :O Drunk, no doubt. It's like, you always know what you're doing, yet somehow, you dont think of the consequences. Corn Fed picked me up and threw me over his shoulder and carried me out of that club like a cave man. Grrrrr! I had alot of fun hanging out with Corn Fed and Danny. Theyre both cool as fuck. I always miss all my ex-bf's friends after we break up. I seem to get along better with them sometimes. Too bad Corn Fed is gay.... Lacey, Marissa, and I are collecting Man Ass. If you are male and would like to take a picture of your delicious man cheeks, please send the picture to me. Thanks. Keta has sent his in, and claims to have a picture of me smoking a joint. click here to see the alleged pic. And in more depressing news, my soulmate, Paulo, is cheating on me with some chick who has a bf. Please let him know I am his one and only. Thanks. I am going to start working on a links section (finally) and link back all the wonderful people who have linked my shitty ass puke green site <3. So if you have linked me, or would like me to link you, e-mail me or let me know somehow. If you would like to use a button to link my ass...... THERE IT IS SUCKAS!

I AM SO STRESSED OUT!!!! I have a test in 2 hours, I have more work on my plate than I can handle, and I got bitched out by the boss!!! *cries* Not to mention the boss asked the administrative assistant to have a "talk" with me, but thats going to happen tomorrow. I think its just to get my school schedule straightened out. I hope. haha Ok...so anyway... Dear Gaby and Nepha, No I have not replaced you, you replaced me! j/k guys You need to call me and invite me out too, ok? I <3 you guys and whatever, ok bizntaches? So lets do something this weekend. I say we go to Phoneix and look for Gunther. Or we could go bar hopping on friday again! :D hoodie hooooooooooooo y'know... haha ok I feel like i am going to break out in shingles from all this stress. Maybe I'm being paranoid, but i think I have a fever and i am starting to feel itchy on my arms. :( Stress so away. I need some Zen in my life. I called my mom and she said she doesnt get stressed out because he does yoga. Yeah, whatever mom. I have shingles...pitty me.

YAY I woke up with a headache today! :/ My mom is back in town, havent seen her yet though, but judging from our phone conversation, I think shes still got that Vegas daze in her. She was talking liker a complete airhead, and my mommy isnt like that. It was weird. She did however get me some stuff from BEBE! That also means that Fifi the dog (see cam shot) will be going home today. :( I will miss her, but not all the poop cleaning up. I have 2 tests this Wednesday that I need to study for. After these tests, I plan on going to Erin's and getting trashed. :D Have you noticed that all I ever really blog about is how drunk I was and how hott that guy was? I cant let you all believe that I'm just another shallow girl. NO! There is more to me than meets the eye! Shiraz bought me some martini glasses from my wishlist! THANKS SHIRAZ!ell Now you should all follow his fine example! *pout* Ben is awesome and you should go visit him. And check out Keta's new site! Tell 'em Lisa sent you!

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I AM HUNG OVER. Last night I went to Tuna's with Margaret and her friens Jazmine, (who will be in a "girls gone wild" video with Eminem grabbing her tatas) and margaret's other friend Javi. I saw alot of people that I knew there and it was getting good untill it started raining! Aceitunas is a beer garden, so its outside. Some gross looking old guy was telling us perverted jokes about licking dogs nuts and ugly chicks with dicks. Some gross guy grabbed me by my belt buckle and said it was an awesome belt. And this other guy wouldnt stop playing with my hair. After Tuna's we went with Julian to Freddy the bartenders house for some more beer. It was fun but I was tired and drunk and cranky so Meg and Javi took me home! <3 yay Now i'm still at home and I think I'm still drunk. I have to go to dinner with my auntie tonight at the El Paso Club which means I need to dress up like a good conservative future wife of a millionaire and curtsey and smile and use the right forks at the right times. But its mexican buffet night! So I'm gonna hit up the bar for the never-ending complimentary margaritas!@@!%#!! My friend Emilio's dad is the Maitre'D there, so maybe he'll hook it up with some Mimosa! I love that stuff. mmmmmmm Mimosassss.... And yes I am a contestant on Battle boobs. I think Rosie has nice boobs, defenetly bigger and nicer than mine, so if i lose, it'll be no big shocker. I was just scared to join because i didnt want anyone to hate me. :( I can't deal with it, so please dont hate me, hate my boobs. That was lame, I need to find better things to write about.

I hate people. No really. I'd say over 1/2 the population annoys me, and i want to strangle them with my hands untill i see them turn purpe and damage their ocal cords so that they become mute and can never speak their annoying ass words ever again! ahhh slap me...HARD I am soo stressed out lately with all the school work and work work and personal problems and social life and whatnot. Welcome to reality! Growing up sucks! I wish I could go back to highschool, or freshman year of college when my life was so much easier. :( Now its like reality has come and its here to stay! yuck! I hate being broke and not having money for stuff. I need new clothes and I need some other stuff, I guess in a sense I have been spoiled because I have never really had to work and earn these things, my parents have always given them to me. Now they expect me to grow up and start becoming more mature. It sucks, but it'll be good in the end. Arent college students always supposed to be broke anyway? :/ My mom is out of town till Monday, shes in Vegas with some of her friends. They went to go see the boxing thing going on over there. Why she would want to see that is beyond me, but oh well. That means I have 4 glorious days of no nagging in my life! Yay! Ok I need you guys to go check This chick because her site is just awesome and she has some interesting things to say. I am going to do something that I dont think I would normaly do. It should all be set by tomorrow or so, so just keep yhour eyes open and watch out. hahaha

Monday sucks. Nuff said about that. I am at work and I'm hardly inspired to do all the shit I need to do. What else is new? Gaby's b-day celebratory bar hop was hella fun. We started off at Capones and we had apple martinis and buttery nipples. Fat Albert and his boy gang was there, how exciting. Then after that Nepha and I were going to get to cincinatti street before anyone else so we could find some cute guys to hook up with. But of course we got cocked blocked by Ruben and his gang of stalkers. I tried turning quick without turnsignals, i tried speeding, i tried everything!!! Then i prdetended to park near cincinatti street and we lost them! IM SO SMART! Nepha and I met 2 really hott guys outside of Hemingways and they invited us to go to Grahms Corner with them. We convinced everyone to go to Grahms and then Nepha hooked up with her guy. Turns out he goes to NMSU and we were like oh so do we blah blah blah...and then we're telling each other what our majors are and he says HRTM and im like OMG Nepha he's a FARMER! And we imediatley look down and check to see if he's wearing boots! ahhh Ok so he's not a farmer, but it was scary. Then we all decide to go to Aceitunas and Gunther (my guy) who I may add was incredibly TALL and uber hott. *drools* Well Gunther was all for us going to Tuna's and so Nepha and I took off again and we all got to Tunas. Bouncer asks for ID's and then he says theres a $5 dollar cover! Nepha flirts with him and he waives the cover fee! We're sitting there, telling everyone about our little adventures with these hotties, and lo and behold, they walk through the door! We ran to the bar and we started chatting. Then Ju-Ju gets to Tunas and we're all having a blast. Then Ju-Ju the pervert tells me "Gunther is hott, Lisa! Either you hit it or I will!" hahaha Then he says "Look at that big buldge in his shorts dude! He's fuckin huge!" So I look and then I faint. haha He was kinda shy and so was I so we didnt exchange numbers or anything. It was fun for that night, whatever. It's hard to be attached to someone or have feelings for them and try to meet new people. And yes I am reffering to Ryan. I am still hoping he'll come around and realize that he loves me and that I'm good for him, but I dont see that happening. I'm just so gld I have awesome friends who let me know I am a hottie (Lencho, my #1 fan and Dan), that I can do better (everyone else here) and that I dont need to be with someone like that. It's hard, but it's getting better. :)

Happy Birthday Gibber Gabber!!! Gaby turned 22 today! It was only last year when Nepha and I planned the surprise party woith the help of lencho, Dan the Man, Andy 1 Potato 2 potato 3 potato 4, Ju-Ju and Yanar. "you booze, you loose!" OMG I just thought of something. Today is also the 1 year anniversary of me hooking up with Feo! Yuck! Dario, guey! Dario is this guy who was Fat Alberts roomate. He's from Tijuana/San Diego and hes the kicker for NMSU. And I ended up going BACK to Andy's place (who was Darios roomate) and having wine with him and whatnot. Now we can all look back at it and laugh..... hahahahaha I hooked up with Feo! :( Anyway, tonight should be a great night. Gaby Nepha and I amongst other people will be celebrating gibber's 22nd so it shall be loads of fun. I bought a skanky shirt just for the occasion! :D Go Lisa Go Lisa! And on an even more OMG note, I saw married Matt's Navigator at Demetrius's house last night! :O He's back from Chicago and prolly still with his un-suspecting wife! Married Matt, you so fine. You so fine you blow my mind! I am also going to help Ryan (i know i know...slap me) today with his C++ shit. It's sooo hard for me to just be there and be a friend, but he helped me, so I gotta help him. As soon as im done helping him I will defenetly lose all contact withhim and hopefully regain my mental health! :( I'm so angry but deep down, I just want my boyfriend back. Ok, no pity, just <3~!

And now for your viewing/stalking enjoyment....here are some pictures. The sick car Casa Lisa The View from casa Lisa

HAPPY LABOR DAY!!! I spent all day hanging out by the pool, having Tecate's, eating guacamole, and having adult conversations with people from work! Sounds lame, but it was actually pretty fun. So much more weird Ryan related shit has happened, but I'll spare us all the details and move onto other things. My car was very sick. :( It was making this horrible crunching noise whenever i hit the break on it and apparently that was really bad. I totally fucked up my car and it cost me a little under $500 american us hard earned dollars to fix it! :( Five hundered dollars! You know what I could do with that kind of money? I'll tell ya! Ugh, so anyway, I'm beyond broke right now. Plusss i have to pay for my books for the 4 shitty classes I'm taking this semester. :( Thats about 300-400 dollars. :( Notice all the frownies :( I'm pretty bummed out here. All this Ryan drama has really lowered my self-esteem and it's hard for me to feel pretty or even good about myself right now. But I need to focus on school and not really give a damn about anything else, y'know? YEAH! DrT has been more than a sweetheart in helping me boost my self esteem and feel pretty again! Thanks DrT! Chelsea has also been such a sweet sweet ho and she cheers me up alot! Me and her will someday be #1 and #2 @ camspot. And I cant forget about PhD (thats for short because his real name is way too hard for me to remember or anything) who is always there to give a good hump on #ig! haha Julian and Margaret are still some of the downest bitches I know and I will be taking them out for drinks and dinner on Wednesday! Gaby and Nepha...ahhh...I was so wasted when I was up there on Tuesday! i cant belive we saw little big mouth!! I was so drunk and I'm like " Thats not Mark Lovello!!!" Duh...it was....and Cholo.....hahaha....I canot belive I made out with him last year. WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!?! Mike Lucero was there too,a nd of course, I will never live down the name "Fresa" for as long as those people live! I miss NMSU so much, but being home also has its perks. Ok...im just being a retard now, so i'll shut up. Remember, Lisa <3's you....oooooooh and I almost forgot, I'm getting on cam LIVE eveyr now and then on yahoo! So if you want to see me pick my nose LIVE add me to your list. lithaethparza k bye

I am on the worlds most fucked up emotional roller coaster. :/ I love Ryan more than him or anyone ould ever understand. Things have been going sooo weird lately. I said some really mean stuff and he didnt bite his tounge when he lashed out at me. Wednesday was horrible and I wish I wouldve stayed home. Now I think he might be trying to make things work for us, but i dont know. I think he really just needs to get his stuff straight and prove to himself that hs better than all of this. All i can do now is be at his side if he needs someone who really cares. :(

Ugh...enough with the crying and wondering what becomes of the broken hearted already!!! Fuck! All I can say now is that I know that I'm a good person and i know that I deserve to be happy and this sure as hell isnt making me happy at all. I need to tell you about my trip to Austin! I had such a blast! I hung out with Reagan and his friend Shawn and David came up from San Antonio to see me too. We were just walking around on 6th street and we decided to go to this place called Crocodile Rock. Its a pretty neat bar. They have 2 guys on 2 pianos and a drummer on stage. They played some awesome songs and Shawn even got a lap dance from a girl on her bachlorette party! :) I got to spend time with David, which I hadnt seen since that one time at Copa freshman year second semester! OMG Thats the night that I hooked up with that hot Abercrombie looking guy! Remember that Nepha? hahaha Well anyway, David looked the same, just a little chunkier. He said that I looked great and even more beautiful than he remembered. :D He was wearing Issey Miyki too! I got him that cologne when we were in high school because I told him it drove me nuts. I was just smelling him all night! We went to some other bar called Cheers and I had like 293843365096097554849302094845738388495.003 shots. Ok maybe it was more like 4 shots, but I was sooooo fucked up. I was in my hotel by 12:30! :O omg imalush! Reagan and Shawn were busy getting their freak on, so I didnt want to poop on their party. Reagan got his boxers stolen by some chicks, Shawn was mackin on all the waitresses David was just sitting there, and I was throwing up all over the place. So needless to say, David walked me back to my hotel. We got some gross pizza which might have been delicious if I didnt have alcohol poisoning and we ate it as we walked back to the Omni. I threw up like 24 more times in my room and then I passed out. I didnt even notice David leave. He said he tried to wake me up, but I wouldnt move. Isnt it great how I could have had some serious alcohol poisoning but my ex boyfriend didnt even try to shake the fuck out of me untill he made sure I was awake and breathing? Hmph.... All in all it was a super good time and I have a lot more reasons to be happy and thankfull and cheery and peppy and stupid and bimbo-ish than to be sad and angry over someone who cant figure their life out. Yes, I may still be bitter, but I'm moving on, I have great friends and I know that theyre here for me no matter what! I love you guys so much! You know who you are, and if you dont....Gaby, Nepha, Julian, Margaret, Lauren, Lencho, Dan, Cesar, Jeree, Julio, Paul, Gabe, Denise, Steve and everyone else! I <3 you!

Yesterday was a very emotional day, but then again, arent they all? haha....Julian and Margaret really came to my rescue and didn't let me be alone. After we all got freshened up we were going to go to the Kings X and have some drinks there. I called Gaby and Nepha and they both came down from NMSU. Thanks guys! Girl Gang and the new Vagina Squad loves you. (no tounges please) Ju-Ju asked me if i minded getting a ride from Wes (Ryans brother) since Wes lives closer to me than him. I said no prob but i had to call and check when he would be ready. So I called and Ryan answered and wanted to know why I was going out with his brother. I dont even know what to do anymore. I love Ryan more than I could ever explain to anyone, but why does he act this way? All I want is to put all this behind us and go back to how things used to be. I'd give anything to have that back, just to have my boyfriend back. But I did have a blast with Juju Margaret, Gaby, Nepha, Yanar, Jazmine, and Wes. Ju-Ju's psycho waiter alter-ego came out when he got a little tipsy. I think we were all pretty fucked up. It was good to be around so many people who love me and knew that I needed a friend. Even though you guys are some major bitches, I am so lucky to have you as my friends. I <3 you guys.

Julian and Margaret, I <3 you guys so much. Thaks you for being here for me when I needed a friend or two! *muah* Ju-Ju and Meg really came through for me today by surprising me at mi casa and taking me out for some drinks. I don't know what I would do without you guys. Meg with the peg leg, you give the best advice ever and you will make a kick ass lawyer! <333 Ju-Ju, you have been more than a best friend for me this summer. We've done so much crazy shit together and I'm trully blessed to have a friend like you. :) Thank you for putting up with me and being here for me in the good and bad times. You guys are amazing! Now hurry up and get back to my house so we can go drink some everclear on the rocks!

As I sit here writing this, I cant help but cry or feel completely empty. Last night my worst nightmare came true. I never thought it would happen to me, but it did. When I met you, I wasnt sure I liked you and I never thought it would get this far. But you seemed to really like me, and to care about me in a genuine way. From the first night we went out I shouldve known that you were involved with things that I didnt need to be around. But you were in such bad shape, that I was scared to let you be alone. Not because I was in love with you, but because I was worried for your safety, much like I worry now. After that night, there wasnt a day when we werent together. I helped you in any way I could, even though at the same time I wasn't really helping myself. That didnt matter, because I was growing closer to you, and I wanted to help you, be with you, show you that I cared. You swore that you had never felt this way about anyone ever so quickly. You said you loved me, and that scared me so much, of course I wouldnt be able to say it back. But you said that maybe with-in time, I would be able to say it. I did say it, knowing that then, I was completely voulnerable. I tried so hard to keep my little emotional wall up, trying not to let my gaurd down. You asked me to open up to you, because if I didn't, then we wouldn't get anywhere in our relationship. That was the hardest thing for me, showing you how I really feel about you know. As soon as I did that, you turned away from me. I thought I was what you needed. I kept you out of trouble, or I tried to anyway. I loved you and cared for you, rushing to be by your side when you needed me the most. I sat with you in the hospital, I took you wheverver you needed to go and I never expected anything in return, except for your love. Then several things started happening to you, and all of a sudden you realized that your life was going nowhere. I was there by your side, but you wanted to be alone. I didnt understand why you would push me away this time. Why didnt you need me by your side this time when things werent going right? It came out of nowhere, it shocked me and scared the hell out of me. I started to think about a million things that I could have done wrong to cause you to act like this. I tried to make things better, but it seems I only made things worse. The more I tried to get close to you again, the more you pushed me away, and you said the meanest things anyone who ever said they loved me has ever said. If this is what loving someone is like for you, then maybe I'm not the one with the problem. Let me give you my two cents worth now. You seem to have a problem with fucking up anything good that you have going for you. You fucked up by going out of town with your job, your family, your health, and me. For someone who wants to prioritze and get their shit together, you arent doing a very good job. I stuck by you even when everyone told me that I could do better. That I didnt need to be with someone like you. I didn't listen because I love you, and I believed in us, and I wanted to make things work. Well it takes two to tango, right? Now after seeing you there with another girl, I believe that everything you ever said to me was a lie. You've managed to hurt me and make me feel more worthless than any man ever has. I'm just glad I finally got to see it with my own eyes, as much as it hurt, now I know that I'm not the one that isnt good enough for you. I may not be the most beautiful girl in the world, or be the best person alive, but I know I'm better than being treated this way. They told me that if you really loved me, you would come look for me. I can honestluy say that I do love you, that I'm in love with you. I'd even like to believe that this is something we can work out. But its the worst feeling inside when someone you love, opened up to, and trusted, breaks all that was there. The bottom line is this: I dont understand why you would do this and I havent understood this whole time. Last night, I was able to understand that you just need to fuck up anything thats good for you. If thats what you want, then theres nothing I can do. You cant help someone who doesnt want to be helped and you cant love someone who doesnt want to be loved.

Ok....so maybe I overracted and blew the whole Ryan saying he needed time out of proportion. We talked yesterday for a little bit and things seemed to be cleared up and better now. I guess I need to chill out if I'm going to be a "Down Ass Chick". Having a boyfriend is so draining, now I remember why I didnt have one for over 2 years! But Ryan makes me happy, so I can't complain. Anyway...I see you guys coming to the site, yet no one buys me anything! How can I be a cam girl if you guys dont shell out a few bucks and shower me with gifts. SO WHAT if I'm not an A-list cam girl....I need to start somewhere, right? In other news, Ju-Ju and I will be hanging out tonight. He works the door at the Comic Strip tonight, so I'll just help him ask for peoples ID's and be gay and stupid with him untill 9. Then we shall party like theres no tomorrow. It sucks that I wont be with Ry-Ry, but at the same time I need to give him his space. *sigh* Ok...Im here at work, ad I havent really done anything productive yet except make 1 phone call. I'm downloading songs and blogging....AND GETTING PAYED FOR IT! Suckers! :( Did I mention I no longer have a cell phone? Aparantly, when I was in Cloudcroft, my phone was roaming, piece of shit 80's monster phone didnt even work 1/2 the time. Well, the Adm. Assistant got the bill for my phone and my boss's phone the other day....each phone bill was over $1,000. =O Holy Mole-ey! Yeah...so I dont have a cell for now. I'm going to get a Sprint phone, but I need to wait untill next pay day because I need to leave a $125 dollar deposit. Pooper on that! yech. Buy me a phone, send money. help a sistah out fooz! Peace in da Middle East!

After only 1 and a 1/2 months.....Ryan decided to give me the ever-popular "I need my space" talk. *Inmense amount of pity here* :( Maybe I am co-dependent. Ugh. He makes me so angry sometimes.....ok ok....most of the time. :/ I told him we shouldn't talk at all untill I get back from Austin, then he said I was overeacting and that my suggestion was stupid. Men. So, anyone know where the hot spots are on 6th street? I need to know where to go and what I need to wear. Hit up the comments or e-mail me and let me know! Im depressed. Buy me something.

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